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Through the morning mist of time
That swirls within and without
Life plays her soft sweet tunes
To drive away the doubt
Sharp edges are not allowed to be
No tongues are cruel or mean
Graces dances upon the clouds
Sky angels can be seen
Kissing the earth with cleansing dew
To bring hope and peace to me and you.
Cries in the night from sorrow and grief
For a love that was lost in time
We did not plan to be parted
So we didn’t count the cost
Broken hearts beating no longer as one
Tarnished and bruised and all alone
Accountable only to God now
All our plans were undone
We did not know we couldn’t have each other
So the tears have continued to fall
Weeping eyes tell the tale
Letting go will be the hardest of all
Why were we brought together again?
Just to be torn apart by what’s right
Paths traveled have led us here
Still separate yet maybe together someday
In eternal life.
As I sit here waiting
I feel change is coming
Trying to please God and my heart
Sometimes can’t co-exist
When I wait I struggle with lonliness
God has me on my protective island again
Just like when I lost my husband of 34 year
But it is hard not to feel deserted and dry
The beauty of the sea calls to me
The mountains I haven’t climbed
Whisper, “Come on!”
But I wait
My joy is seeping out slowly
Waiting, hoping, needing
But to know avail
No voices are heard
But those of my own heart
It waits with me
Watching, listening, crying, sighing
Oh well, maybe later.
Trying to find the words
To describe how I feel
I am sad yet hopeful
Wanting to laugh
And yet to cry would be okay
Hope is dwindling to a slow drip
Others must always come first but really?
Is this a pity party I’m putting together?
What is this melancholy mood?
I want my dreams back
They have gone away again
And I can’t search for them
Life plays tricks on me
Makes promises which are not kept
Doubt dances with regret for time lost
Time that will never come back
Future minutes and seconds are only borrowed
And must be returned
How sad to never be able to plan a ‘for sure’
The unknown will win again over want
Now there is rain in my eyes
With no clouds in the sky
I wish I knew the answer
Maybe then I could see my dreams
And visit them for a spell.
The heart does not come alive until it is touched by love. It’s only function is as a pump with which to supply the body with what it needs. But when life brings love to fill it and it begins to beat for others, it finds it’s way. It can be hard as nails but when touched by love it softens and becomes complete. It is pliable in the hands of God. It finds it’s true purpose which is to give life to the giver of that love and the receiver of that love. It chooses that person as it’s own.That is love-to be enjoyed and cherished. This is life-to be fulfilled and wondrously give by God. Romans 8:28 says, And this we know that all things work together for good to those who love God and are called according to His purpose.
My mind says to let you go
But my heart says absolutely no
I walk around in turmoil and grief
Lost in sadness and such disbelief
I only want what is best for you
But I don’t know what else to do
If only I could make some plans
Put my life in God’s perfect hands
But I’m so afraid you would be lost
And I am not willing to pay the cost
So I wander down this lonesome trail
To give up means that I might fail
To have the life I want with you
I still care so much that is true
For time is not always as it seems
In my world of shattered dreams
When time pulls me one way
And life pulls me another
I reach for the bits and pieces
Flying by to make me whole again
Yet so many unknowns steal them
No framework or netting to catch on to
Dreams and wannabes duck and dodge each other
Like magnets pushing each other away
From completing the future plans
Yet still hoping to no avail
I wander in this fog of regret
And what was supposed to be
Never settling for less but not getting the more either
My heart is like a patchwork of broken momemts
Tied together with frayed ribbons
Of old bittersweet memories
Always lost in the waves of not now
Watching the swirling of forever
Mixing every thought with the tears
Of someone else’s life
The bits may never find all the pieces
That would form the ending that is needed
To fulfill the desires of this old lady’s heart.
This poem came out of a time when my life had been put on hold to help others and harsh words had hurt me deep within my spirit but Jesus had my back and helped me through this trying time.
Life is a leveler
And seeks it’s own
Then wants more
Emptying my soul of joy
When the stress gets to bad
I stumble in the darkness
Tripping over my own thoughts
What else do I have-
That is worth the fight?
Do I hang on to this?
Or let go of that?
Will it matter in the end?
What will I do-
When I finally break?
Will anyone care?
And put me together again?
Words maybe if soft and sweet
Could be just the thing
That is needed to fix my heart
Love seems to be the thin veil
Used to cover up the cause
I evidently did or said
Something that was wrong
When everything is finally done
And all the lights go out
Will joy come back out of the dark
And caress me in the night?
Words of love are spoken
When acts of love do meet
Hearts are fulfilled-not broken
When words and acts do meet
Cheerful cries float on the air
Made by children dark and fair
Hope abound and tarry there
Keep them from all worldly care
Time does have a plan for everything
All laid out very carefully
But alas not a soul can see
What the results are meant to be
So, hope abound and tarry here
Make us part of the plan
To take us up to that holy sphere
Where God will walk with His created man.
Beauty for ashes
Brings the promise
Good follows bad
Like flowers on weeds
Lily pond’s rain
And sunshine mornings
Life’s simple needs
Matter to everyone
Love over hate
Joy dried tears
New faces old creeds
With thoughts beyond time
Tomorrow grows up
Taught by whoever leads.
byheavenslight 