Tag: Forgiveness

Patience and Mercy

Patience and mercy where are you?

I walk as if I have been offended again

I pout as if only I matter

Like a silly child with no thumb

To put into my mouth

Really!!!!

God, this is so me!

You must be tired of me

Always doing this!

No patience! No mercy!

Please forgive me as I need to

Forgive others

Is it as hard for You to forgive me?

To show me patience when I’m childish

To show me Your tender mercies

When I fail

As it is for me to show patience

And mercy towards others?

No, because You forgive and forget!

Your tender mercies are new every morning

Your patience is a never-ending supply

I am so sorry!

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Perfect Faith

I see others on their walk of faith

Strong and so together

But that’s not me

I’m all over the place

One day I may pray and another

Totally forget

Doubt can be a companion

That rears it’s ugly head

I can help others to understand

A few things of what I know

Then be so mad at myself

For my shaky silliness and weakness

I read books about the great men

And women of God

I marvel at the knowledge to be

Gleaned by the anointed writers of Theology

Yet the one Book I ignore the most

Is the one I need the most

Perfect faith lives within the pages

Of this Book

Written by ‘The Author and Finisher’

Of my faith

The Alpha and Omega. The LORD of all

Yet I stumble on my path to Him

I fall so short and fail so much

I want to please and be a good child

But I get in the way

When I read of the trials and tribulations

Others have gone through

Or listen to them tell of great blessings

And the things they have done

I hang my head in shame

I have no crowns to lay at my Savior’s feet

Only a broken heart beaten up by life

Patched together with tattered threads

Of sin and remorse

Covered by excuses that I know would sink

Into the soggy quicksand of pity and woe

Yet I do truly believe that He loves me beyond measure

He forgives me my failures and laziness

When I repent then ‘He restores my soul

And cleanses me from all unrighteousness’

I don’t and can’t do it myself

My faith is in Him and Him alone

But as long as I live and breathe on this Earth

I will fail in my walk and my faith

But the One who flung the Universe across the Heavens

Still hold me in His arms as I cry my tears

Of regret at failing Him

Like a child I climb upon my Father’s lap

As I weep with a heart of gratitude

He tells me I am His beloved

That I am worthy ‘By the stripes that paid

The price for me’

One day I will leave this sinful world

And enter those Heavenly Gates of purest gold

No longer afraid or ashamed

My Savior will hold out His nail-scared hands

And welcome me into His home

I will be accepted completely and have

Beyond all shadows of doubt: A Perfect Faith!

Thank You, Jesus!

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Echoes

Echoes thunder in my head like lighting

Flashing within my soul

Guilt pierces the night

Revealing the excuses stained with sin

Father help me I need You so!

Forgive me

Bring Your sweet rain of peace

Within my soul

Soft and tender

Banish this storm of regret and condemnation

Quiet the voices that thunder out their lies

Cover me with Your wings of love

And I will be safe.

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Lost Again

5/24/08  This is the last of the the five writings from 2008 when I was taking care of my Mother-in-law who had dementia. She was a beautiful soul but my husband was a recipient of jerk DNA. He wore it proudly and we all suffered for it. There was a lot of stress on me and anyone else who crossed him. Kids included. Writing was my outlet but these were never put on here until now. He is in the nursing home with his own dementia. He pulled one to many stunts and the doctors placed him where he couldn’t run away from himself. If this sounds callous so be it. You cannot judge me unless you lived it.

Lost Again

I have jumped into the deep end of the pool

And can’t swim

Will anyone see me trying to survive?

I’m splashing and yelling but no one cares

They are all to busy trying to survive themselves

I lost again-regret is ruling the emotions

I should have been told how deep the water was

Fear if nothing else would have stopped the jump

But I could have looked myself

Instead I guessed I was right

Maybe that’s what is wrong

Guessing isn’t a certainty but this drowning is

I am sinking now but the water is comforting

It is engulfing me. Trying to help as best it can

It has become my friend and understands

As it seeks it’s own level too

Can it help me find mine?

My world has become slanted

Sometimes happy then sliding into gloom

I know ingratitude is pulling me deeper still

Am I the one who is wrong?

God didn’t tell me the water was so deep

Life has stripped the joy from me

Will I ever get it back?

Will the Lifeguard from above jump in for me?

Am I that important or will He save someone else?

I always seem to be the last one chosen

Maybe I should just learn to swim

Now that’s a thought! Can I even count on me?

We’ll see! I”ll just try a little longer

Hold on to the side and go to the shallow end.

 

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Mistakes

A mistake stays a mistake I don’t learn from it. If it teaches me that I am responsible for the choices I make when tested then it becomes a lesson in life and is up to me to study for the exam! I am responsible for me but the consequences of my choices will affect everyone with the ripples caused by any stones I may throw. God, Please help me to always be kind and forgiving not only to others but to myself as well.

 

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Lost in Time

Seeing someone you love slip away is devastating

Moments contradict each other with each thought

Confusion and shaking of the head

How sad to see life as we know it

Slowly ebbing away into darkness of no more

Grabbing bits of life before they are gone

But to no avail they are lost in time

And sweet memories of our yesterdays

Trying to talk in riddles just to understand

When fighting this killer called: Dementia

It’s cruelty lapses only in sleep then

Awakens with a vengeance when aroused

From it’s slumbering death of doom

No one can have an unforgiving spirit

When faced with this reality

Compassion and tears stain the pillow

For their loved ones caught in it’s grip

For to not care is impossible

Grudges disappear into forgiveness

No longer angry at this human being

But humbled by their courage

Letting go of past hurts and tears

Strengthen the resolve to do all that

Can possibly be done them

To relieve as much suffering as possibe

From the indignities of the inevitable

Peace will come only as they slumber

In God’s eternal sleep

And take their flight to Heaven’s home.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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There Was Always Hope

Today I have made a choice at last

Choosing to become complete

I will take the moments in my past

That may be sad or oh so sweet

And knit them to my heart today

With the golden strands of life

And starlight from the Milky Way

Keeping joy to guard against the strife

I faced my hardships and trials

Walking the darkness of the scary night

Following the wrong paths of denials

Yet always coming back into the light

Many times it was so tiring just to cope

But knowing in the end I would be okay

My dream knew there was always hope

And, Father God, to show me the way.

 

 

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Light From Above

The peace of God

Came as Light from above

Hurrying on

Angels wings of love

The glory of God

Came inside my soul

Carrying away

All fears and woe

As my praises went up

Into the heavenly skies

He dried the tears

Of this grateful child.

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A Faraway Land

I dream of a faraway beautiful land

A place that is majestic and grand

With gates of pearls and jasper stone

I dream of a mansion that is all my own

With airy rooms so light and free

Surrounded by a brillant crystal sea

I dream of my Savior’s beautiful face

Who will come and take me to this holy place

For He has promised and will keep His Word

I dream of His white horse and flaming sword

The angels singing harmony across the skies

As He removes the evil with its tormented cries

I dream of going to my eternal place in glory

For I believed the Bible’s old, old story

Now I dream that all will heed the warning

And get right with God before the morning

He will split the Eastern sky with lightning bright

It will not be a dream visiting you in the night

I invite you to go with me to that beautiful faraway land.

 

 

 

 

 

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A Legacy of God

A Savior came from on high

To save their souls and to testify

He was their eternal Legacy sent by God

Who was to be honored and glorified

“We’ll preach the Word from coast to coast!”

The people they all cried.

Then put Him on cruel Calvary

When for His kingdom they were tried.

They feared Him. They knew not why.

So they watched as He went to die.

They watched as He was crucufied!

“Forgive them!” They heard Him cry.

Then for their sins He had to die!

OH, GLORY BE TO GOD! HE DIED FOR ME!

So I will be Your testimony!

I will live my life as You will see

To the very best of my ability!

And with the help of Your Spirit true

I will honor this Legacy sent from You!

 

 

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