‘maybe’

Seems like I have waited my whole life on ‘maybe’

When I was a little kid it was ‘maybe’ I’ll get to play outside

And not have to do chores

As I got older ‘maybe’ that boy in my class will finally like me

As a teenager I had ugly teeth but thought ‘maybe’

I could get braces

When I became grown ‘maybe’ was my wishing well of hopes

‘maybe’ I’ll fall in love and someone will love me too

‘maybe’ I’ll have two or three kids to raise and enjoy

After I was grown it was marriage and sitting up a home

It was three kids whom I adore

The job of ‘maybe’ I’ll get this bill paid before

They ‘maybe’ turn my water off

Becoming a debt dancer to other ‘maybe’

But doable in time

It wasn’t a ‘maybe’ if I was loved

Because I was so blessed

‘maybe’ I was a good Mom

You would have to ask my three kids

‘maybe’ I’ll be a neat ole lady in my dotage

Then again ‘maybe’ not.

We will see, ‘maybe’.

Morning Mist

Through the morning mist of time

That swirls within and without

Life plays her soft sweet tunes

To drive away the doubt

Sharp edges are not allowed to be

No tongues are cruel or mean

Graces dances upon the clouds

Sky angels can be seen

Kissing the earth with cleansing dew

To bring hope and peace to me and you.

I Can Rest Now

I can rest now

My heart is at ease

I know everything will be okay

The tears fell into the night

Like cascading waterfalls

I tried to push the hurt away

With tender thoughts

And fervent prayers

But nothing helped

Then I heard His still small voice

Whisper to my soul

“Everything will be okay.”

Now I trust God’s eternal plan

For He always does things right

So I hold my heart in my hands

Outstretched to Him

Giving it to Him for His perfect will

I don’t need to worry or fret anymore

For everything will be okay!

All The Things I’m Not

I guess I need to be more of all the things I’m not

Like bold as brass or sharp as a tack

More unforgiving and harsh

Uncaring and mean as heck

Maybe I need to cuss and call people names

Or even write them off as not worth my time

Do I make fun of some poor soul or

Ignore them completely?

What am I to do if I can’t be who I am?

I love deeply each and everyone of you

So whether you like me the way I am or

Make fun of me because I’m not you

Doesn’t matter one little bit

I will always try to be kind

Even if I don’t make up my mind

As some have gave me smack about lol

I will try to help as much as I can whenever I can

I will love you until my last breath and beyond

So bear with me and maybe I’ll finally get it right.

Just Talk

Let’s talk of things that used to be

About days and memories of long ago

About everything just you and me

And bring them forth, remember the snow?

Our hearts will return to those yesteryears

Especially the time we parted

Even though filled with many tears

We clung to the dreams we had started

We will discuss how life had other plans

Remembering each and every day

How we were in God’s hands

Even though we had to go a separate way

Now time has brought us to this place

Of memories about our special walk

And even though we aren’t face to face

We can dream again and just talk.

Beyond All Yesterdays

When our worlds collided

We took notice

Not with big bangs or hallelujahs

But smiles and simple touches

That meant so much

The Universe kept spinning

As stars lite up the night

We had found each other

Beyond all yesterdays

The future danced before us

In the pale moonlight

Sunshine then warmed our souls

While gentle sea breezes

Caressed the sandy shore

Then it happened! Life!

Different directions and paths to take

Other plans took over way back when

Still the joy of knowing

Beyond all doubt that

Over the years and up to now

We had been touched by God’s amazing grace

He will be the One to complete the dance

How beautiful it will be

If it be His will

To dance again under

His canopy of stars

In the pale moonlight

As the angels sing.

Old Pictures

A strange mood has come over me

One of sadness but not quite

Grief has a soul of it’s own

It must had visited me in the night

I have lost so much in my life

Yet gained the blessings of the sweetest friends

Still I feel as if I don’t quite measure up

Lost somewhere on a road that never ends

I haven’t walked the way of others so much

Not the life of the party I guess

I’m an old soul with ingrained traits

And trusting to much has made me a mess

Seeing the old pictures of times long ago

That mingle with the pictures of now

Grabs my heart with such grief

Yet on I must go

God please show me how

I wait for a future that may never come

Promises are broken when reality steps forth

Can’t go back to pick up the pieces of a broken heart

So sadness and regret dwindle my worth

I see others twirling on life’s dance floor

Enjoying many things but still I wait

Can’t chisel in stone what is to come

Hopefully my last dance won’t be to late

So i sit here holding my grieving heart again

Seeing old pictures of sweet love yet sorrow

I wander back over my life’s path of memories

Of lost yesterdays, today, and maybe tomorrows.

Forever Loved

When I walk through these times of strife

I can smile

Even though sometimes life is hard

I can sit with my memories for just a little while

I’ve seen in them love and laughter

Heartbreak and tears

And many many precious days

Always remembering a special birthday

And my beautiful card

Or joking with my daughter and daughter-in-law

About a needed scented candle holder

My kids have made me laugh so much

I can carry such joy in my heart

Remembering my son’s first fish

And how proud he was

A smile of delight will light up my face

As I recall when he told us a ‘time joke’

That about got his Dad a ticket

As I recall my oldest daughter’s window escape

She had quite an adventure but she got caught

Or my youngest daughter’s visit to the cemetery

When she thought someone grabbed her foot

Grandkids have brought me such fun times too

Especially if they can scare me

Oh how they would laugh

Now waltzing across my mind

Are the times of being loved

Of long age embraces and two-stepping

Across an old dance floor

Friends and family have made my life worthwhile

So memories of them do warm my soul

Having coffee and playing cards

And watching our children grow

Yes grief has touched my my memories

With a widow’s tears But oh the love

That still remains and such hope

That’s still yet to come

So today I will reflect upon these memories

Which are only just a few

For many many more are stored

Within my heart’s treasure box

Wrapped up in the warm blanket

Of ‘forever loved’.

Heart Songs

The tune of the heart song

Is soft and sweet

Most of the time yet

It can be sad and lonesome

With tearful strains

Happy and hopeful

From day to day or

Stirring long ago memories

That bring tears of regret

Searching the cords for

The just right note

To soothe the pains of loss

And emptiness away

Having to make hard choices can

Burden down the melody

And make it not so soothing

To hear once more

Life picks the rhythm and carries

The beat from another time

We must listen closely if we want

To hear the message

For in the heart song

Only love can read the notes

Played for the special someone

That wrote the words in the first place

And sing within the soul

And love will listen.

You Need to Know

If you are reading this

You need to know

That Father God loves you so

It does not matter what you have done

Because you see dear child

You are not the only one

We have all sinned and fell short

Each and every day

But, Father God, gives us the time we need

To get right as we kneel and pray

And ask for His sweet mercy and forgiveness

He holds us to His tender heart

Knowing we are all full of human weakness

And to Him always of much worth

We must teach those who don’t know Him

Of the call upon their lives to go forth

The mission field is right next door

Or maybe across the street

It may be in a Veteran’s hospital

Or a nursing home

Where you will find the one you are to meet

Helping them to find hope to carry on

And not to give up the fight

Wherever Father God has called you to go

Just go with His Light

He has already directed your path

And set your purpose to be of much help

Don”t doubt or be afraid of others

Or what they might think

They may be the ones He has sent to save

From His wrath

Time is running out for everyone

So we all must teach and be ready

To share the Gospel to those we must reach

No matter the hardships or the cost

For tomorrow will never come

And yesterday is lost

so only as we all can see will we have today

To show others as Scripture tells

That Jesus is the only way

To Father God’s throne of mercy and grace

So go forth and fulfill your purpose

Someone is waiting to see your smiling face.

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