All The Things I’m Not

I guess I need to be more of all the things I’m not

Like bold as brass or sharp as a tack

More unforgiving and harsh

Uncaring and mean as heck

Maybe I need to cuss and call people names

Or even write them off as not worth my time

Do I make fun of some poor soul or

Ignore them completely?

What am I to do if I can’t be who I am?

I love deeply each and everyone of you

So whether you like me the way I am or

Make fun of me because I’m not you

Doesn’t matter one little bit

I will always try to be kind

Even if I don’t make up my mind

As some have gave me smack about lol

I will try to help as much as I can whenever I can

I will love you until my last breath and beyond

So bear with me and maybe I’ll finally get it right.

Just Talk

Let’s talk of things that used to be

About days and memories of long ago

About everything just you and me

And bring them forth, remember the snow?

Our hearts will return to those yesteryears

Especially the time we parted

Even though filled with many tears

We clung to the dreams we had started

We will discuss how life had other plans

Remembering each and every day

How we were in God’s hands

Even though we had to go a separate way

Now time has brought us to this place

Of memories about our special walk

And even though we aren’t face to face

We can dream again and just talk.

Beyond All Yesterdays

When our worlds collided

We took notice

Not with big bangs or hallelujahs

But smiles and simple touches

That meant so much

The Universe kept spinning

As stars lite up the night

We had found each other

Beyond all yesterdays

The future danced before us

In the pale moonlight

Sunshine then warmed our souls

While gentle sea breezes

Caressed the sandy shore

Then it happened! Life!

Different directions and paths to take

Other plans took over way back when

Still the joy of knowing

Beyond all doubt that

Over the years and up to now

We had been touched by God’s amazing grace

He will be the One to complete the dance

How beautiful it will be

If it be His will

To dance again under

His canopy of stars

In the pale moonlight

As the angels sing.

Old Pictures

A strange mood has come over me

One of sadness but not quite

Grief has a soul of it’s own

It must had visited me in the night

I have lost so much in my life

Yet gained the blessings of the sweetest friends

Still I feel as if I don’t quite measure up

Lost somewhere on a road that never ends

I haven’t walked the way of others so much

Not the life of the party I guess

I’m an old soul with ingrained traits

And trusting to much has made me a mess

Seeing the old pictures of times long ago

That mingle with the pictures of now

Grabs my heart with such grief

Yet on I must go

God please show me how

I wait for a future that may never come

Promises are broken when reality steps forth

Can’t go back to pick up the pieces of a broken heart

So sadness and regret dwindle my worth

I see others twirling on life’s dance floor

Enjoying many things but still I wait

Can’t chisel in stone what is to come

Hopefully my last dance won’t be to late

So i sit here holding my grieving heart again

Seeing old pictures of sweet love yet sorrow

I wander back over my life’s path of memories

Of lost yesterdays, today, and maybe tomorrows.

Forever Loved

When I walk through these times of strife

I can smile

Even though sometimes life is hard

I can sit with my memories for just a little while

I’ve seen in them love and laughter

Heartbreak and tears

And many many precious days

Always remembering a special birthday

And my beautiful card

Or joking with my daughter and daughter-in-law

About a needed scented candle holder

My kids have made me laugh so much

I can carry such joy in my heart

Remembering my son’s first fish

And how proud he was

A smile of delight will light up my face

As I recall when he told us a ‘time joke’

That about got his Dad a ticket

As I recall my oldest daughter’s window escape

She had quite an adventure but she got caught

Or my youngest daughter’s visit to the cemetery

When she thought someone grabbed her foot

Grandkids have brought me such fun times too

Especially if they can scare me

Oh how they would laugh

Now waltzing across my mind

Are the times of being loved

Of long age embraces and two-stepping

Across an old dance floor

Friends and family have made my life worthwhile

So memories of them do warm my soul

Having coffee and playing cards

And watching our children grow

Yes grief has touched my my memories

With a widow’s tears But oh the love

That still remains and such hope

That’s still yet to come

So today I will reflect upon these memories

Which are only just a few

For many many more are stored

Within my heart’s treasure box

Wrapped up in the warm blanket

Of ‘forever loved’.

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