Coming Back

Today my son has been back in America one day. He has been gone on deployment to Afghanistan for almost a year. I was on FB when they landed in Germany but I didn’t know if he had flown in with the group that had landed or if he was still in Afghanistan. Finally another mother told me my son was with her son and they would be coming home by way of Bangor Maine. When they arrived in Maine FB lit up with so many happy posts that I couldn’t keep up. Then as I was scrolling down the news feed there was the most beautiful sight a mama could see-her son with a green water bottle stuck across his eyes. I thought he was funny before he left but to see him for the first time in months with a water bottle over his face well needless to say I had ‘mama shock’! The very next picture though was of him sitting at the same place minus the bottle. His expression to me was one of complete exhaustion, anger and depression. I say anger because someone had stolen his phone not to long after he got to Afghanistan so he couldn’t call his loved ones. Anger because he had to depend on others for any kind of help plus he had no money for any kind of snacks or whatever they need. His expression was also sad because they still had to wait for the debriefing and issueing out process which only detains them longer. I understand this is a requirement and is very important to make sure the soldiers are well enough to come home  and to make sure they are not carrying anything contagious or harmful into the country but this waitng is terrible. I said on a post on FB that it was like having a present under the tree at Christmas and you know it is the greatest present ever but on it is a card that says, “DO NOT OPEN UNTIL CHRISTMAS!”  He will be doing better tonight though because Mama sent him some money so he can get spruced up for his family and enjoy a few things that he has had to do without for a long time. His wife and kids and two sisters, aunts, plus, maybe uncles, nephews, neices, and many friends will be at his Homecoming Day as well as many other families who are picking up their soldiers. Me, his mama, well I’m leaving tomorrow to go to OKC and visit with family there and then I will, along with my husband, be at the hanger to welcome them all home. Well not all of them, 14 soldiers from their unit didn’t come home with them just their memories. They were killed in action. Their mama’s, wives, sisters, brothers, sons, and daughters would give anything to see their loved ones with a green water bottle stuck over their eyes in jest. I do so pray for those families. I also want to thank God for bringing my son home to us. I do not know what is on the next page of his life but I do know that Tuesday he is coming home. This has been his third deployment. In 2003 he was sent to Afghanistan. He lost his Daddy in July of 2004, two weeks before he was to return home. In 2007 he was sent to Iraq. This time when he came home in 2008 his best friend’s son had died of heart disease at 12 years old. Two deployments, two homecomings, and two funerals of dear loved ones. This time he and the other soldiers carry the losses of their own. I can’t change what has happened in the past but I can try to make him forget for a little bit because this mama is going to kiss his whole face, and hug his neck, and cry for absolute joy!  He retires from service in a few months so there will never be another homecoming from war! Praise God from Whom all blessings flow! WELCOME HOME SON! I LOVE YOU!

Letting Go

There’s not much joy in a sack full of holes

Nor in heavy burdens that exact their tolls

Empty sacks can’t get us anywhere

Hard are the burdens ‘we’ won’t share.

We’ll carry each little hurt, along with the pain

Not letting go, “What have ‘we’ to gain?”

“We’re not the ones who are at fault!”

“Why, should ‘we’ forgive?” “Bring hate to a halt?”

“Never,” ‘we’ say, “will ‘we’ forgive!”

“No, never, as long as ‘we’ live!”

Harboring these burdens of turmoil and strife

‘We’ allow them complete control of our life.

‘We’ in our own selfish, uncaring thoughts

Can’t seem to remember, nor do as ‘we’ ought

For God’s Word has told ‘us’ in more ways than one

Christ Jesus paid the price-redemption’s work is done!

He is asking ‘us’ now to lay down the hate

To forgive each other-it’s not to late

Let’s fill our hearts with joy galore

Extending mercy like never before.

‘We’ cast all of our cares on His strong back

Forgetting the past as love fills ‘our’ sack

Continuing on now forgiveness in tow

‘We’ receive God’s grace by ‘Letting Go!’

 

You Don’t Have to Go It Alone

There is a place love goes when it’s dieing

A place so lonely, dark, and cold

A graveyard for the broken-hearted

At the very bottom of the soul.

I cannot understand why this is happening

What have I done? What did I do?

Oh Lord, please hear my heart crying

I can feel me breaking in two!

Then from the depths of despair, I hear Him call

As I faint from this weary load

Don’t give up! Take My hand. I love you!

You don’t have to go it alone!

I can’t carry this burden much longer

The pain is more than I can bear!

Dear Lord, I don’t even want to try!

Where are You? Why aren’t You here?

I can feel my life slowly leaving

There is no strength to carry on

Inside my mind I keep asking

Dear Lord, What have I done?

Then from the depths of despair, I hear Him call

As I faint from this weary load

Don’t give up! Take My hand! I love you!

You don’t have to go it alone!

Mama Needs Water

Down in the well the ole bucket goes

Mama needs water to wash all of the clothes

Soapsuds and scrub boards singing their song

She’s in her apron just humming along.

Sweat’s pouring from her soft wrinkled brow

She keeps on working knowing just how

Carrying each load to the ole clothesline

To dry in the breeze and the warm sunshine.

Her children are thankful, they know they are blessed

Mama’s clean sheets are simply the best!

They’ll lay down their head on a sweet pillowcase

Feeling mama’s love all over their face.

She does not have to do all that she does

But she’ll do what she can for the family she loves

So down in the well the ole bucket goes

Mama needs water to wash all of ‘their’ clothes.

A Taste of the Wilderness

Most of the time we think life is okay

We, as mortals, can usually find our way

Then comes the great life-changing needs

That knocks us to our ungrateful knees

We flounder under the unending stress

When faced with a taste of the wilderness.

Just like God’s children of old

Who built the forbidden calf of gold

They could not wait just one more day

For Mose’s to show them the Father’s way

Turning their backs on the land of promise

When faced with a taste of the wilderness.

People have not changed in all these years

Hardships are still here along with the tears

But we must never give up or ever turn back

Into the world of bondage to sin and of lack

Always seeking the path that God will bless

When faced with our own taste of the wilderness.

Sisters of Mine

From the very first memory in time

To the newest moment of now

I see your faces before me

They are ever in my heart

We have in many ways traveled

The same captivating paths

Stumbled over many hurt-some trails

Walking within this course called life

Always knowing that if ever needed

Each would be there for the other

As we come closer to the end of now

We continue walking out our destinies

For many a time I’ve thought of you

Holding you close by love in prayer

So to all of you dear sisters of mine

I dedicate these simple little words

May God always keep you by the hand

Until we meet our Savior

And He lead us safely home.

Little Mamas

Within my album of memories I can always find

My precious little mamas walking through my mind

Because they were my friends from the very start

Their pictures always hang upon the walls of my heart

A wall of greatest honor for each has earned her place

By being such sweet ladies full of love and Godly grace

I see their smiles as they lit up my world of gloom

Giving me the ‘just right’ Word causing hope to bloom

Encouraging and sustaining with little bits of cheer

Helping to chase away that beguiling enemy I call ‘fear’

I know I would not be here-today-if it had not been

For their fervent prayers sent to God, now and back ‘when’

So if you will allow me I will honor each dear one today

First, “Thank You, God for bringing them into my heart this way.”

“Thank you” my sweet little mamas for always taking the time

To fill the empty void left-after Heaven became home to mine.”

Unseen Hands

Invisible love of unseen hands

Unfold the blankets of the heart

Layers of doubt-wrinkles of shame

Imbedded woes of long ago

Trapped images of fleeting wrongs

Gathered like straw within the mind

Forbidding the joy to be free

One by one the faults are driven

Far from the shattered spirits

To a place of wholeness, within

Realms of hope with blessed peace

Where unseen hands caress

With tender touches of grace

Knitting forgiveness of self

To the hurts of others

Going beyond what needs to be

To belong once again

Where the beautiful memories

Of only the good doth dwell.

I Took a Walk

I took a walk through my amazing life today

I saw all the people I had met along the way

Some were very helpful and encouraging as could be

One or two knocked me down kicking dirt all over me

A few mocked in amusement as I took the inevitable fall

While others judged I was of no use at all

I still don’t understand why some wouldn’t even let me try

To be the person I was meant to be-Or why?

For in my walk I truly tried to help all I could

Only wanting them to treat others as they should

Now as this walk of life is approaching it’s final end

I just want to say to those I call a dear friend

Thank you for blessing my life on this earth

For through the portals of time I have seen your worth

By your kindness and genuine love you have shown

I pray for you to be blessed and never lost or alone

Until we walk those glorious eternal streets of gold

And our gracious Father God receives us into His fold.

Mountain Morn

Daybreak dances over grand majestic views

Morning’s sunrise gleams with autumn’s hues

Golden eagles soar above the sunlit ridge

A valley stream caresses the old canyon bridge

Quaking aspens are dressed in glittering gold

As flashes of sunlight become more bold

Big horn sheep scale the craggy heights again

While silver foxes scurry into their forest den

Lovelorn elk bugle out a lonesome call

Beneath rugged pines standing straight and tall

Giant waterfalls cascade among tiny rainbows

As reflecting pools fill with melting snows

Butterflies flitting from flower to flower

Sweetened by a soft moonlight shower

Wispy clouds stream over the brave summit’s face

Disappearing miraculously without a trace

Chattering squirrels gather fallen conifer cones

Tiny chipmunks scamper over moss-covered stones

Mama doe watching over her newborn fawn

Miracles unfolding within this sun-drenched dawn

Life’s amazing wonders are on this stillness borne

Flying on the wings of every mountain morn.

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