Today my son has been back in America one day. He has been gone on deployment to Afghanistan for almost a year. I was on FB when they landed in Germany but I didn’t know if he had flown in with the group that had landed or if he was still in Afghanistan. Finally another mother told me my son was with her son and they would be coming home by way of Bangor Maine. When they arrived in Maine FB lit up with so many happy posts that I couldn’t keep up. Then as I was scrolling down the news feed there was the most beautiful sight a mama could see-her son with a green water bottle stuck across his eyes. I thought he was funny before he left but to see him for the first time in months with a water bottle over his face well needless to say I had ‘mama shock’! The very next picture though was of him sitting at the same place minus the bottle. His expression to me was one of complete exhaustion, anger and depression. I say anger because someone had stolen his phone not to long after he got to Afghanistan so he couldn’t call his loved ones. Anger because he had to depend on others for any kind of help plus he had no money for any kind of snacks or whatever they need. His expression was also sad because they still had to wait for the debriefing and issueing out process which only detains them longer. I understand this is a requirement and is very important to make sure the soldiers are well enough to come home and to make sure they are not carrying anything contagious or harmful into the country but this waitng is terrible. I said on a post on FB that it was like having a present under the tree at Christmas and you know it is the greatest present ever but on it is a card that says, “DO NOT OPEN UNTIL CHRISTMAS!” He will be doing better tonight though because Mama sent him some money so he can get spruced up for his family and enjoy a few things that he has had to do without for a long time. His wife and kids and two sisters, aunts, plus, maybe uncles, nephews, neices, and many friends will be at his Homecoming Day as well as many other families who are picking up their soldiers. Me, his mama, well I’m leaving tomorrow to go to OKC and visit with family there and then I will, along with my husband, be at the hanger to welcome them all home. Well not all of them, 14 soldiers from their unit didn’t come home with them just their memories. They were killed in action. Their mama’s, wives, sisters, brothers, sons, and daughters would give anything to see their loved ones with a green water bottle stuck over their eyes in jest. I do so pray for those families. I also want to thank God for bringing my son home to us. I do not know what is on the next page of his life but I do know that Tuesday he is coming home. This has been his third deployment. In 2003 he was sent to Afghanistan. He lost his Daddy in July of 2004, two weeks before he was to return home. In 2007 he was sent to Iraq. This time when he came home in 2008 his best friend’s son had died of heart disease at 12 years old. Two deployments, two homecomings, and two funerals of dear loved ones. This time he and the other soldiers carry the losses of their own. I can’t change what has happened in the past but I can try to make him forget for a little bit because this mama is going to kiss his whole face, and hug his neck, and cry for absolute joy! He retires from service in a few months so there will never be another homecoming from war! Praise God from Whom all blessings flow! WELCOME HOME SON! I LOVE YOU!
Letting Go
There’s not much joy in a sack full of holes
Nor in heavy burdens that exact their tolls
Empty sacks can’t get us anywhere
Hard are the burdens ‘we’ won’t share.
We’ll carry each little hurt, along with the pain
Not letting go, “What have ‘we’ to gain?”
“We’re not the ones who are at fault!”
“Why, should ‘we’ forgive?” “Bring hate to a halt?”
“Never,” ‘we’ say, “will ‘we’ forgive!”
“No, never, as long as ‘we’ live!”
Harboring these burdens of turmoil and strife
‘We’ allow them complete control of our life.
‘We’ in our own selfish, uncaring thoughts
Can’t seem to remember, nor do as ‘we’ ought
For God’s Word has told ‘us’ in more ways than one
Christ Jesus paid the price-redemption’s work is done!
He is asking ‘us’ now to lay down the hate
To forgive each other-it’s not to late
Let’s fill our hearts with joy galore
Extending mercy like never before.
‘We’ cast all of our cares on His strong back
Forgetting the past as love fills ‘our’ sack
Continuing on now forgiveness in tow
‘We’ receive God’s grace by ‘Letting Go!’
You Don’t Have to Go It Alone
There is a place love goes when it’s dieing
A place so lonely, dark, and cold
A graveyard for the broken-hearted
At the very bottom of the soul.
I cannot understand why this is happening
What have I done? What did I do?
Oh Lord, please hear my heart crying
I can feel me breaking in two!
Then from the depths of despair, I hear Him call
As I faint from this weary load
Don’t give up! Take My hand. I love you!
You don’t have to go it alone!
I can’t carry this burden much longer
The pain is more than I can bear!
Dear Lord, I don’t even want to try!
Where are You? Why aren’t You here?
I can feel my life slowly leaving
There is no strength to carry on
Inside my mind I keep asking
Dear Lord, What have I done?
Then from the depths of despair, I hear Him call
As I faint from this weary load
Don’t give up! Take My hand! I love you!
You don’t have to go it alone!
Mama Needs Water
Down in the well the ole bucket goes
Mama needs water to wash all of the clothes
Soapsuds and scrub boards singing their song
She’s in her apron just humming along.
Sweat’s pouring from her soft wrinkled brow
She keeps on working knowing just how
Carrying each load to the ole clothesline
To dry in the breeze and the warm sunshine.
Her children are thankful, they know they are blessed
Mama’s clean sheets are simply the best!
They’ll lay down their head on a sweet pillowcase
Feeling mama’s love all over their face.
She does not have to do all that she does
But she’ll do what she can for the family she loves
So down in the well the ole bucket goes
Mama needs water to wash all of ‘their’ clothes.
A Taste of the Wilderness
Most of the time we think life is okay
We, as mortals, can usually find our way
Then comes the great life-changing needs
That knocks us to our ungrateful knees
We flounder under the unending stress
When faced with a taste of the wilderness.
Just like God’s children of old
Who built the forbidden calf of gold
They could not wait just one more day
For Mose’s to show them the Father’s way
Turning their backs on the land of promise
When faced with a taste of the wilderness.
People have not changed in all these years
Hardships are still here along with the tears
But we must never give up or ever turn back
Into the world of bondage to sin and of lack
Always seeking the path that God will bless
When faced with our own taste of the wilderness.
Sisters of Mine
From the very first memory in time
To the newest moment of now
I see your faces before me
They are ever in my heart
We have in many ways traveled
The same captivating paths
Stumbled over many hurt-some trails
Walking within this course called life
Always knowing that if ever needed
Each would be there for the other
As we come closer to the end of now
We continue walking out our destinies
For many a time I’ve thought of you
Holding you close by love in prayer
So to all of you dear sisters of mine
I dedicate these simple little words
May God always keep you by the hand
Until we meet our Savior
And He lead us safely home.
Little Mamas
Within my album of memories I can always find
My precious little mamas walking through my mind
Because they were my friends from the very start
Their pictures always hang upon the walls of my heart
A wall of greatest honor for each has earned her place
By being such sweet ladies full of love and Godly grace
I see their smiles as they lit up my world of gloom
Giving me the ‘just right’ Word causing hope to bloom
Encouraging and sustaining with little bits of cheer
Helping to chase away that beguiling enemy I call ‘fear’
I know I would not be here-today-if it had not been
For their fervent prayers sent to God, now and back ‘when’
So if you will allow me I will honor each dear one today
First, “Thank You, God for bringing them into my heart this way.”
“Thank you” my sweet little mamas for always taking the time
To fill the empty void left-after Heaven became home to mine.”
Unseen Hands
Invisible love of unseen hands
Unfold the blankets of the heart
Layers of doubt-wrinkles of shame
Imbedded woes of long ago
Trapped images of fleeting wrongs
Gathered like straw within the mind
Forbidding the joy to be free
One by one the faults are driven
Far from the shattered spirits
To a place of wholeness, within
Realms of hope with blessed peace
Where unseen hands caress
With tender touches of grace
Knitting forgiveness of self
To the hurts of others
Going beyond what needs to be
To belong once again
Where the beautiful memories
Of only the good doth dwell.
I Took a Walk
I took a walk through my amazing life today
I saw all the people I had met along the way
Some were very helpful and encouraging as could be
One or two knocked me down kicking dirt all over me
A few mocked in amusement as I took the inevitable fall
While others judged I was of no use at all
I still don’t understand why some wouldn’t even let me try
To be the person I was meant to be-Or why?
For in my walk I truly tried to help all I could
Only wanting them to treat others as they should
Now as this walk of life is approaching it’s final end
I just want to say to those I call a dear friend
Thank you for blessing my life on this earth
For through the portals of time I have seen your worth
By your kindness and genuine love you have shown
I pray for you to be blessed and never lost or alone
Until we walk those glorious eternal streets of gold
And our gracious Father God receives us into His fold.
Mountain Morn
Daybreak dances over grand majestic views
Morning’s sunrise gleams with autumn’s hues
Golden eagles soar above the sunlit ridge
A valley stream caresses the old canyon bridge
Quaking aspens are dressed in glittering gold
As flashes of sunlight become more bold
Big horn sheep scale the craggy heights again
While silver foxes scurry into their forest den
Lovelorn elk bugle out a lonesome call
Beneath rugged pines standing straight and tall
Giant waterfalls cascade among tiny rainbows
As reflecting pools fill with melting snows
Butterflies flitting from flower to flower
Sweetened by a soft moonlight shower
Wispy clouds stream over the brave summit’s face
Disappearing miraculously without a trace
Chattering squirrels gather fallen conifer cones
Tiny chipmunks scamper over moss-covered stones
Mama doe watching over her newborn fawn
Miracles unfolding within this sun-drenched dawn
Life’s amazing wonders are on this stillness borne
Flying on the wings of every mountain morn.